On my mindFebruary 26, 2009 5:26 am

Today, I did almost nothing.

It was a weird feeling. Mainly, I was procrastinating from writing. I had told myself that I would read the two chapters of a new book over again before sending it to a friend for his opinion. Then, I didn’t want to read it, because it would mean sending it. I’m a little odd that way about risking part of myself to an audience. I know, that sounds kind of hypocritical from someone who writes a blog, but I don’t know most of the people who read this, and no one comments (except the nice person who liked my Maynard G Krebs poem eons ago, and my friend that I didn’t know even read this (waves!)).

Bunny turned 10 last Tuesday. On Wednesday, Roo became very ill, and stayed that way until late Saturday. He had all of the symptoms of a flu, so there wasn’t much to do but get his fever down and keep him comfy. It didn’t help that he became resilient in the afternoon. So many kids wanted to play! But even in arguing with me about leaving the house, he became tired, and usually fell asleep on the sofa while I worked. I managed to get his flu as well, so by Saturday, we were both misshapen lumps in the living room.

Roo lost enough weight due to illness that he worried me until today. His appetite is back to full strength, having consumed two helpings of everything set before him. I’m glad, since his birthday is next week, and his class has a special field trip to the fire station on Monday.

What this means for my writing, costuming, and various other interests is that I’m now way off schedule. Since I make the schedule, I’m not too annoyed by this. Even being behind did not force me to work today. I messed around on the internet, made lists of things I need to get done (the ultimate procrastination device!), and stared at the half-painted walls of my dining room.

Tonight, however, I have accomplished a bit more than today. I wrote a few more paragraphs to my story - it’s growing beyond my first idea, which is nice. I can always rein it back in should it get too messy. I cooked dinner, washed dishes, and managed to exercise after removing 4 dogs from my person.

Our dogs are behaving strangely today. Maybe it is the weather. Matilda (the Australian Shepherd/German Shepherd mix) physically pushed me out of the doorway this morning. I thought she wanted to go for a walk, but it was raining, and she managed to make it half way to the sidewalk before looking up at the sky, then returning to the door. Fergus, our new whippet/neediest animal in the universe, has decided he’s a cat. He slinks into my lap when I’m on the computer, and types with his chin. He’s also decided to speak up for our rabbit’s universal right to come out of its cage by pawing at the cage’s door until it opens. The rabbit is not as enthusiastic about frolicking around the house while a sighthound chases him. Our two poodles have hidden behind various pieces of furniture all day. They normally line up on the back of our sofa, or sleep in their beds.

Before I go, Wil Wheaton twittered the other day about an amazing cellist named Zoe Keating. I thought I’d tell more people about her. I’m definitely hooked. She uses some kind of sampling software to play several parts at the same time. Her music is really impressive, and beautiful.

Here’s a link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rJiybW81mXA&feature=related

On my mindFebruary 18, 2009 7:21 pm

The biopsy was disconcerting. I suppose someone sticking needles into your neck is never going to be considered fun, but the doctor was efficient, and very helpful in understanding what was going on.

He said, even before the biopsy was over, that I needed to be in the mindset of having my thyroid removed. There are multiple nodules, and they won’t stop growing. Eventually, they will cut off my air supply, or grow down into my chest cavity. No, thank you.

I have bruises on my neck from where the needles went in. My husband teased me about being a vampire victim. He’s so good to me.

The biopsy revealed that I had precancerous nodules. They are the kind that could turn quickly into cancer. Ok, with that information, you’d think I would already have had the surgery, right? Wrong. I have to wait until March to see an endocrinologist. After that, I’m hoping for a quick decision to operate, and maybe be ok by Easter. So, you see, not really good news or bad news.

My friends are being very helpful. They said that they would make me a steampunk-style writing apparatus so that I can still communicate after the surgery. Strangely, I have a character in a steampunk game we play that cannot speak. Weird how life follows fiction sometimes. They also offered to stay with the kids if we need them to. That’s really nice of them. I kind of wonder how that’s going to work. I figure they will be wrapped around some little fingers rather quickly.

My daughter is now 10 years old. She’s beautiful, smart, and an amazing person. I don’t remember watching her become this. She just suddenly was. It’s fun to have a daughter that is also a friend!

My son will be 7 in March - yeah, awful timing for this whole biopsy thing - and is 7 going on 17. He’s doing great, and although he’s a little miffed that his sister is ALWAYS going to have her birthday first on top of ALWAYS being older than him, he’s handling it pretty well.

We’re under a tornado watch right now, with sunny skies. I hope nothing happens before they get home from school.

The book is coming along nicely. Hope to have a finished rough draft by May. Everything’s as good as it can be.

Oh, and Facebook is addictive. Blah.